Arnox said:
You seemed perfectly socialable on the Discord. You were a kewl guy.
Who destroyed me with the Flak Cannon a fair few times.
That was mostly because I was trying to have fun and forget about my issues (As I think everyone should for those times when playing with friends.
Give me a more serious setting and a couple of hours and I will probably be yelling at you for some random petty shit.
Signa said:
The hardest thing about being depressed is the things that get you out of the depression fastest are the things that you just do NOT want to do while depressed. If you can push past that wall, you'll have a much easier time getting over your mood. Things like exercise and being outside are hard to get started on, but all that extra oxygen makes all the difference.
That doesn't quite work for me, the thing about me and depression is that I usually get into it and out of it by working (Be it either personal projects or just plain, normal work), as in not working makes me depressed and working usually keeps me busy.
The issue that I'm having right now is that I don't want to work for the company that I'm working on but my contract doesn't expire until January, therefore I cannot work on personal projects that I
want to work on because usually when I get home (Sometimes after work schedules of 12 or more hours) I'm so tired that I don't want to do anything but relax and I fucking
hate the work that I'm doing right now for various ethical and professional reasons that I don't feel going into right now.
So it's not easy for me, I've been trying to keep myself busy with several smaller projects around the house like setting up network security (Including building and configuring a firewall) and renovating/giving maintenance to all computers and hardware but ultimately I'm starting to run out of shit to do.