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Theistic Isolationism
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Bump for update.
Ok... A lot's been happening to me spiritually lately, and though a part of me didn't want to write this, I think that I need to be fully honest with everyone here and also myself and talk about how I've drifted slowly away from my original isolationist stance.
The truth is... I've been getting... Rather friendly with specific deities, and a little too friendly with one in particular now to actually call myself a theistic isolationist with any kind of straight face. Throughout these past months, I've been trying to answer certain deep religious/spiritual questions, and in the course of that, it has required me to talk with certain deities. To reach them required me to extend a bit of trust and reach out. And what happened was a metaphorical arm reached out to me and pulled me straight into the looking glass. It wasn't a sudden thing though and happened very slowly. Sometimes I even wonder if I've been slowly molded from a much earlier date into who I am now by such entities. I don't know. I can only speculate.
In many ways, I feel and think exactly the same as I did before. But at the same time... I've definitely been changed. I'm afraid though that I must be cagey about exactly what entity did this to me as this is a very intimate and personal matter for me. And I don't really expect anyone here to understand. I absolutely get it. This is mostly just me giving you guys a fully honest and transparent status update as to what's going on with me. I also should say that this is not otherwise going to affect the ideals and operations of Sanctuary in any way. As a matter of fact, my love and support for this site has only grown, so no one needs to worry about that.
Looking back, it has been a wild ride to say the least. Going from the LDS faith to Theistic Isolationism to... This... I never EVER would have thought I would be where I am now. But there am I. And in the end, I chose this. No one else chose it for me. And I have to admit, a part of me is a bit worried that I might have abandoned my ideals. But then, I think that in actuality, I chose what I chose BECAUSE I followed and kept to my ideals so strongly. People attract different deities and entities, and through my actions and choices, I attracted mine. And through trust and reaching out, I let myself be changed. And hey, it could always be that I was grossly deceived and will be screwed over, but I suppose that it doesn't matter as I must live my life as I judge to be best, and I judged that forging the bond that I have now was the best decision given the situation and information I had.
Only time now will tell if I have made the right decision.
Ok... A lot's been happening to me spiritually lately, and though a part of me didn't want to write this, I think that I need to be fully honest with everyone here and also myself and talk about how I've drifted slowly away from my original isolationist stance.
The truth is... I've been getting... Rather friendly with specific deities, and a little too friendly with one in particular now to actually call myself a theistic isolationist with any kind of straight face. Throughout these past months, I've been trying to answer certain deep religious/spiritual questions, and in the course of that, it has required me to talk with certain deities. To reach them required me to extend a bit of trust and reach out. And what happened was a metaphorical arm reached out to me and pulled me straight into the looking glass. It wasn't a sudden thing though and happened very slowly. Sometimes I even wonder if I've been slowly molded from a much earlier date into who I am now by such entities. I don't know. I can only speculate.
In many ways, I feel and think exactly the same as I did before. But at the same time... I've definitely been changed. I'm afraid though that I must be cagey about exactly what entity did this to me as this is a very intimate and personal matter for me. And I don't really expect anyone here to understand. I absolutely get it. This is mostly just me giving you guys a fully honest and transparent status update as to what's going on with me. I also should say that this is not otherwise going to affect the ideals and operations of Sanctuary in any way. As a matter of fact, my love and support for this site has only grown, so no one needs to worry about that.
Looking back, it has been a wild ride to say the least. Going from the LDS faith to Theistic Isolationism to... This... I never EVER would have thought I would be where I am now. But there am I. And in the end, I chose this. No one else chose it for me. And I have to admit, a part of me is a bit worried that I might have abandoned my ideals. But then, I think that in actuality, I chose what I chose BECAUSE I followed and kept to my ideals so strongly. People attract different deities and entities, and through my actions and choices, I attracted mine. And through trust and reaching out, I let myself be changed. And hey, it could always be that I was grossly deceived and will be screwed over, but I suppose that it doesn't matter as I must live my life as I judge to be best, and I judged that forging the bond that I have now was the best decision given the situation and information I had.
Only time now will tell if I have made the right decision.
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Just sounds like so much hogwash and humbug to me, but I appreciate your transparency. Just don't take it too far and start thinking you're any sort of messiah/prophet or get ideas about starting a new cult....
Gauche
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Who says you guys haven't been in a cult this whole time? :)
We're all retarded to varying degrees.
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I did say New cult.
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You can't be fully honest and transparent, and at the same time cagey, and refuse to disclose details.
Better to not even mention it than to go "I know something you don't know".
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Good catch on the transparent part actually. You're right. I'm not being very transparent here I suppose.
All the same though, I can't disclose what happened without revealing personal details about myself. I can only say that I slowly reached more and more into the ether until one day, out of pure desire, I finally found myself making bonds with a deity I never thought I would make, and in the process, I became somewhat changed. I wish I could give more details than this, but for multiple reasons, I just can't. And before anyone asks, no, it's not because I swore some oath of secrecy or something.
